...or why my house isn't always clean
My grandma was a Native American with a unreliable mind. She was eccentric and strange to some, never kept a clean house and loved the order of things stacked one on top of another. On more than one occasion I remember her telling me to "always take care of the living first" and that is how I remember her. Watering her plants, feeding the cats, birds, fish, guinea pigs, and dogs, and doing what she...
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Friday, May 24, 2013
Heart-felt fear
The boss lady herself!
I got my dream job 10 months ago tomorrow and in a little over 4 months I am getting a promotion!
Last night I was overwhelmed by how much I love that job, my "boss" and how good I wanted to be for her at that job, yet how ill equipped as a person I am for the responsibility. One of my biggest insecurities in life is my ability to truly be a good mom. Through psychology classes and personal sessions I...
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
The wait for weight
A women's weight is a heavy topic. No pun intended.
I remember in the first few months I was pregnant with Sawyer gaining weight at an amazing rate. Going from 105lbs, give or take, to almost 130lbs in 4 months was an experience. The day that we took the dogs on a walk and I felt poured into my favorite pair of jeans was the turning point into maternity clothes and an interesting revelation into how my weight is directly tied to...
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Here's to the small things...
The thought struck me last night- Sawyer is 9 months old and we have not dropped her! Now this must read as such a simple and small measure of "good" parenting but it strangely felt really good. I highly doubt that every child by the age of 9 months has been dropped accidentally, rolled off of something, or just plain had a unexpected tumble- but I was really proud that ours hadn't.
I remember when Sawyer was just a tiny babe and I...
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Masa y manteca
My lunch made me realize I was looking for comfort. Two tamales, rice, beans and watermelon water, although it sounds much better in spanish- aqua de sandia.
A mexican girls comfort food, all piled up on a stryofoam plate.
Kids, parents, board members, teachers, and still... ringing phones. Today was a rare day that I didn't leave my personal life at the door, it somehow had arrived in my office before me, unpacked and settled in-...
Friday, April 5, 2013
The Ark
I truly have happened my way through life. A bit of naivety paired with an overly rosy, positive outlook on things has gotten me this far- not planning. I love it that way! I make vague attempts at plans on occasion but if they don't go as planned- well, whatever.
So, the news of baby #2 fits right in with that. We didn't plan for it, but boy do I love the plan that the universe has for us! Sawyer came to us the same way, no trying...
Friday, March 15, 2013
Fluff filled nothingness
Dedication. Consistency. Time. An interest to stay up past 9:00 p.m. A belief that my life is worth sharing.
These are all things I need to be a blogger.
I have discovered in the past few weeks, I am about as good as blogging as I am at writing in my journal. Actually- I am better at writing in my journal. So I suck at blogging. I recognize that my lack of blogging is not leaving a gaping hole of emptyness in the blogging world...and...
Thursday, January 17, 2013
A sacred exchange
Last night a beautiful thing happened. Although it was only a conversation it stuck with me and I have found myself daydreaming about the possibility more than once this morning. I can see it so clearly in my head and it is a beautiful sight.
Adoption.
Aaron and I have had baby planning on our mind, which is surely a symptom of having family and friends with inquiring minds. My answer to the question of when we are having...
Monday, January 7, 2013
Gloom & grain
This post began a few days ago and came to a halt for some reason. Checking back today it is still so relevant, so I will hit post and release it to the universe.
Today I am a mess.
I imagined that I would be writing a Happy New Year post full of cheer and excitement but that is not the place I found myself in this morning. Surely it will wear off but for now I will acknowledge it and share it truthfully. It is probably exaggerated...
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